One of my counsellors recently told me that a Narcissicistic Fixation was the reason I couldn't move out of pedophilia and into more "natural" (ie: same aged proportioned) homosexuality.

I completely agree that I have a Narcissistic Fixation... or Peter Pan Syndrome or whatever you want to lable my desire to be a boy, stay a boy and have a boy who also stays a boy.... but I so DON'T beleive that it's a fixation that I can leave behind... nor do I want to... and even if I could, I don't think I'd be gay or straight or any other than the sexuality that I am.

So there! Mr Counsellor. /Cat pokes out tongue in a typically boyish fashion.

Counselling helped me a lot to deal with things and I'm very grateful to my counsellors for the help they gave me but we agreed to stop over that particular difference.

Now of course I believe that sexuality can be whatever, it's what you CHOOSE TO DO that really defines you.

Blessings
Cat.