Man, I really, really wish I had an answer for that. I know that Jesus can fill any void in your heart, but there is something about missing a beloved boy that just hurts. Believe me, I know, and I more than agree with what Marc wrote, too. I haven't seen my "L" in over 8 years now and I miss him so much it hurts sometimes. I don't know if I will ever see him again and I will tell you what, that is a pain I hope you never, ever have to experience. It's a long story why this has happened and maybe sometime I will tell it in here again, but suffice it to say that life has just never really been the same since that last day I saw him. If your beloved YF is still in your life right now, then my friend, be so so glad and thank God for His goodness. I know that things are different for you now and they will probably never be the same as they were when he was younger, but at least he is still in your life and you can still tell him you love him and he can still tell you the same. I would give anything for that...believe me. I kind of envy you but I am so glad for you and I hope God blesses your friendsip forever!

Chris