You are moving forward. Accepting yourself for who you are will solve much of your mental anguish.

You're right, counseling can help with many things but it will not make your sexuality change. If you want to continue counseling maybe you can find a different one who doesn't think he is a magician.

Your Christian friends who are telling you that you are still a BL cause you are 'holding onto things' DO NOT KNOW WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT. You are not healed because there is no healing needed, you are not injured or sick mentally.

"It's time for Cat to move on.
To get past this heavy handed searching for deliverance all the time.
I'm not straight... it's as simple as that.
My wife will either learn to live with that or she won't."

Good I'm glad to hear you say this.

Godspell