My wife knew that I liked boys when we got married. What was not clear was that I didn't find her attractive.

To add to this I pretended to find her sexually attractive.
I see her as attractive...even beautiful... its just not a sexual attraction... or at least its so tiny a sexual thing as to be useless.

I don't believe I pretended maliciously. To me it was more like: now I'm here I'll play the part with enthusiasm. Trouble was that it was just acting... and now the curtain has been torn away and she can see the Wizard of Oz is really just some short guy from Kansas.... and well... there's no going back.

Dejected
Cat.