For the sake of the kids is a very high motivation for her to stay in the marriage. Sometimes she says its the only reason she stays.

She tells me she gets to the point where she wants to leave but then she thinks about the kids and stays.

I don't think she expects me to be perfect... she just expects me to be the man I lead her to believe I was.

The other day I was mulling over the idea, "she doesn't love me for who I am"... but then I thought .... "she loves the man I made myself to be by my deception". I can't really hold that against her.

She also believes that her sexual rights to me as a husband are biblical and therefore legitimate, whereas my sexual desire for a boy is ungodly and sinful and therefore illegitimate. I believe things are much more complicated than that :S

Thanks for your encouragement Dakota, your post has given me a few things to think about.

Blessings
Cat.