Actually, it is quite the opposite. The Word of God has been misunderstood, and I seek its true form. The Spirit guides me, and I listen as best as I am able, and what I hear is "I Love you, I Love you, I Love you...". My conscience tells me after these years of searching out God's will for me, that this is right in its own way. And nature and science tell me that homosexuality, and even boylove are not only natural but an integral part of the lifeblood of the whole.

It has taken many years of pain, searching, weaping, self-denial, self-torture, religious questing, confusion, prophesy, begging, prayer, meditation, abstinance, carnality, violence, and self-control to arrive at the four most funamental Truths that a man can know:
God made me. God walks with me. God loves me. God has a use in mind for me.

Do not ever question my faith again bigcalv. Question only your own; for it is not I who has been fooled by the veils of time and past error, not I who has closed my mind off from questioning the possible folly of those who have gone before me, not I who ignores the love in my heart.

I continue to seek the Mind of Christ, and I do not claim to already possess it by means of my human father's tradition. Instead, I seek the Spirit in the Word, in my Heart directly with my own eyes, my own ears, my own mind, my own soul, my own strength, and thereby gain the greater Power of the God who seeks me of His own Will as well.

I wonder that you can have such a hardened heart, and not see it at all.

I pity you.

In Christ,
~CSL