Hi Deliverance,
I think your situation is similar to mine. When I am alone, my thoughts get through my mind and I feel depressed. I dont spend a time with any boy as well, but I aspire to ocuppy my time with the things that I like and I consider theese things they are important to me. (Guitar, painting, drawing, music, etc...)But there is one thing to be more important: spending my time with people, making relationship with the others. That is most important.
You are thinking about your situation and you already wrote what to do. A girlfriend who can help you, to have someone that you can have to your side and who you might turn into loving... I think this is one of the resolution. Let make the relationships!
In Christ
Akallabęth