First time here.
Submitted by Rab on July 11 1999 at 21:59:37
In reply to The sad truth Submitted by Triple Q on July 07 1999 at 18:29:06
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I really don't know were to begin. I guess confession is the beginning of healing ( if that's what i'm looking for ). I'm a boylover, I don't know why or how but I am. I'm also a christian who has ran from God, drowned myself with alcohol and drugs trying to be at peace with who I am or should I say what I am. I struggle with the moral issues daily. I know it's wrong to have the desires I have but I can't surpress them, there real and very strong. I love God and want to serve Him with my whole heart, but on the other hand I feel like I'll never be able to. There's a constant war going on in my head, I often wish this life was over and I was with Christ, complete in the spirit. I know I'm not alone and I'm filled with the Holy Spirit, but most of the time I feel so empty, wanting to love and to be loved in a way that I know can never happen. I know this is old news to most of you, but I hope you can bear with me, because I'm really thank-full that I can speak to this board, I have no one else that I can talk to about this. Pray that I find peace before I go out of my mind. |