Re:I'm Out To More People Than I Would Like
Submitted by Chris on 2003-01-3 14:40:18, Friday
In reply to Family 'Out'ing submitted by Drifter on 2003-01-1 18:48:02, Wednesday
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Hi Drifter, Because of the trouble I have gotten into, I am now out to way more people than I would have ever believed I could be comfortable with. Certainly, if it were up to me, I would never have chosen to be out to as many as I am while living in a small town. I am out to my Pastor and his wife. I love them both and they have pretty much adopted me I think. Or perhaps I have adopted them, either way I have found out first-hand that the concept of a family of God is not just a concept, it can be real if we apply it in our lives. I am out to the Police Department and the Sheriff's Department. I am out to many people who work at the County Court House and also at the Social Services Office. I am out to the people who work for the Drug and Alcohol Rehab Clinic, especially the counselor who I had to do my out-patient classes with. I am out to my P.O. (of course). I am out to all of the people at the Sex Offender Program that I have had to struggle with. I am out to two Judges and at least two Lawyers. I am also out to about five differant Psycologists, the latest one, "K", is turning out to be a good friend and valuable alie. All of these people (except "K") I have been out to since, and as a result of, my arrest and sentencing. Right now, the worst part about being out to so many, and also being in that Sex Offender group, is that I am being laid off from my job and it is very difficult to find another one. When the people in the offender class found out that I had a job at a grocery store as a night manager, they had a fit because I was working in a public place ('where so many unsuspecting children could be exposed to me'...), and I was supervising some teenagers. My P.O. had a talk with my supervisor and they decided to move me to the meat room. Well, the Butcher in there didn't really want someone with no experience (I found that out eventually...), so the very first chance he got, he cut my hours in half and they hired a regular meat cutter from out of town. I was also at fault in this because I was having problems with a pornography addiction and this made for problems on the job, but I know now that he actually couldn't wait to have an excuse to get rid of me. After this week he should be quite happy because he told me that this week is my last. You know, I haven't had many threatening letters or phone calls, and no burning crosses in front of my "house" (I live in a motel room). No, none of those things have happened, but that certainly dosen't mean that life has been fun or easy by any means. There are ways to comunicate hatred, and then there are WAYS, if you know what I mean. I am so grateful that I have God as a Father, and He loves me so much!!! Oh, I almost forgot, I am also out to my entire family. All of them have dissowned me....well, all but my Dad, thank God again!!! Love in Christ Jesus, Chris |
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