Thank you for the warning.

I can tell you my current understanding of my situation. While I have been healed, I am prone to falling down that path again. Therefore (for now I trust myself with that much) I shouldn't actively seek to see children in my AoA (like with google searches), but I allow myself to appreciate the beauty of those that I spontaniously encounter.

I limit myself this way because it was Jesus who has healed me; and risking falling down that path would be testing the healing He gave me. And that would be a bad thing, becuase " We should not test Christ,[b] as some of them did—and were killed by snakes." (1 Cor 10, 9 ).

If you see that any of the above could lead me to me being sexually attracted to children, please tell.

If you could tell me what exactly happened between you believing that you are cured and you asking for help I would be very thankful.

Once again, thank you for the warning. I will be careful.

You can be sure that I pray for you.

PS. Since I learned how terrible Gmail's anonymity is, I switched to an account on hushmail - confident14al @ hushmail.com (of course without the spaces)