I am starting to feel some guilt about an upcoming situation. If you have been following my posts then you know that I recently lost a YF due to some complications with his mother. Now I have another YF potential but I am feeling guilty about my previous YF. I still have the potential of contacting my previous YF's mother and attempting to fix the relationship, but I don't know if it would work. She made her feelings pretty clear, and even if it was only out of anger I am not a part of their lives anymore. I don't want to abandon my previous YF, but I don't know if I will be able to be in his life.

This new YF isn't really new, but I am able to be more involved in his life now. He really needs somebody since his father isn't a part of his life and his mother is young with two other children. His mother is overwhelmed and doesn't know what she's doing. He has all sorts of issues and I think I could really help him. That is the same sentiment I had for my previous YF and I feel like I am just giving up on him. I somewhat feel like this is the plan for me, but I have thought that previously. Any advice or ideas are welcomed. I feel like God is sending me a message, but I don't understand.