I wouldn't be doing half the things I do outdoors if she wasn't around. We're going to a nice lake this weekend. Next weekend we're going to another one. I really do love her, Blackstone. I guess it's not so much that I feel like I'm being untruthful, I'm just not being 100% honest. That's what gets me. Everyone has secrets though. Even her, I think.

Still I love her, yet little boys always seem to catch my eye. That's the frustrating part. You said "sexual attraction is a small part of love". I agree. I also feel that being a BL is a small part of who I am. That's what I believe and that's how I cope. Long story short.

Yes, after I posted my last message I realized that I typed something about Catholicism. Then I remembered that this is a Christian titled forum. I even had a colleague remind me today what the difference was between Catholicism and Christianity. This is further proof that I don't know my face from my elbow when it comes to most religions. That's why I'm here.. to learn.

Thanks for the warm greetings, Blackstone.