Hi everybody.
I'm new here, and almost new to the boylovers knowledge.
I've already posted here, but I thought it was right to do it in a proper post.
I'm not a boylover, as I wrote in another boylove chat, I came here to show you my support. In my childhood I felt the need, the longing for an older male figure in my life, I never got.
In the last months, maybe years, I've felt really, deeply bad, and I even call the name of god. In my years, lost ones, I remember coming to know of god, and he remained in my life though I didn't use to believe in him. I shouted to him, even yelled to him in my crises, then I prayed to him.
I suppose I'm not out all the way in here, for at the end, I didn't call the name of god anymore, but the name of God. I don't know if I believe in him, but I need, I think I need to believe in him.
I... just felt like dying.
I would love to speak to you.