im trying to put up a barrier and forcing myself to be cold to him because im pretty sure hes not gay and well i dont think im capable of being friends with someone that im attracted to. it's really hard though because he clearly wants my attention and i want to spend all my time with him. rationally speaking though i know i should break off any relationship with him.

also wats up with this place having really shitty internet? i cant connect to this site 4/5 times...