Recently I've gotten together with a friend, whom he put a bunch of blocks on my computer to help me with a pornography addiction. Only in the end, I feel like a freaking beast. Every chance I get to steal a family member's laptop for 3 minutes, I take it. I take it, and view material that isn't healthy. And I'm not even speaking from a Holy point a view. As a human being bent on having a normal life. It's just not good. I feel like I have to have it, and I devour like, like a true addict. I've tried basic counseling and prayer, and I'm sad to say, I don't think it's enough. I need some kind of desperate measure. One I can't really come up with.
I am truly broken, and I know this will come back to dominate me if it's not dealt with soon. I don't really know what to do. To make matters worse, my leg injury has come back to haunt me, as I started working. so I do anything, ANYTHING, to take my mind of the pain. I end the day in hiding all my troubles in a sock crusting in the bottom of the clothing hamper.

Aw man, I hate it.