I have been a part of GirlChat, Boychat and this forum and have discovered something about those who cling to the titles of boylover, girllover and/or childlover. I use to cling to these titles as I thought they best described me and would be easier to go down the mental stomachs of those who I sought to share with my sexuality.

Well after months of debating, soul searching and questioning I have come to some personal conclusions. These are from my observations and I am not considering my conclusions to be conclusive for everyone but for myself.

1. Boylove, girllove, childlove is not what the "antis" think. It is not about sexual attraction to kids under the age of majority. It is a part but a very small part and seemingly an insignificant one. It is about youth liberation and ensuring those who are under our care by the nature of our ages are enjoying life to it's fullest and are treated as equals.

2. My sexuality is more complex than it seems and can not be marginalized into groups or labels. I find myself sexually attracted or turned on by males and females of varying ages and personalities and do prefer sexually, the physical as well as emotional characteristics that are commonly found with those under the age of majority and especially those who have yet to reach puberty.

This means that with the right female over the age of majority meeting my physical preferences by shaving her vaginal area, being open-minded, eternally curious, non-judgmental and a host of other character traits I have found in ones so young, I can see myself and even look forward to sharing my life no matter how short or how long.

I no longer consider myself a Pedophile or Pedosexual as the only real marker to use to describe my sexuality would be whether the one I find attractive is either male or female. Age doesn't seem to me to be a good indicator of attraction as there are too many factors in play to make that a concrete indicator or gauge of attraction.

Now, this does not mean I don't find preteens and teens unattractive because I always will and I still believe that sex is not the business of nations, governments or those on the outside of the relationship except for maybe the parents.

3. I also find freedom in knowing that my only chance to enter the Kingdom of Heaven is the Grace and Mercy of God. We have debated about scripture and it's accuracy as well as it's application and I have discovered that the only thing that matters is FAITH.

Your Faith will determine your actions and your actions will lead those to get a glimpse of your faith. I for one am glad salvation was granted not because of but in spite of my level of deservance and because of God's unconditional love. I don't fully accept nor believe a lot of what other's believe or teach but will always be willing as I am now to face God one on one and allow him to make the final decision. After all, the only thing that matters is receiving God's acceptance and approval.