I understand how you feel and there was a time I was ready to commit suicide because of my sexuality. For us it's not just about sex but it's about expressing our love in the most intimate way we humans can and that's by being physically, emotionally, spiritually and mentally intimate with those we love and are in love with us.

People think that as long as you have a boy or girl in your life and you are helping them then that's enough. NOT. That is where the pain comes in. There is a girl I like and love however I may get to talk to her but I may never be able to fully express how much I love her and how much I adore her. I may never be able to wrap my arms around her look her deeply in her eyes while smiling and kiss her on the lips just to say hi.

I don't know what to say to tell you that it's ok to feel the pain and anger there are times I feel it myself especially every time I am told that I am evil and my freedoms God gave me are attacked by People who didn't create me. However, don't let the pain consume you because when you think about the Goodness of God that will overshadow everything else. I am able to live celibate from my pedosexuality not because of what the law says but because as long as I have my relationship with God, I find fulfillment and satisfaction which allows me to be me apart from the things I can or cannot do.

Abide in His love and remember to Seek Ye FIRST the Kingdom of God and HIS Righteousness and ALL OTHER Things will be ADDED UNTO YOU!