Christian BoyLove Forum #59374
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Well today, I had to give my vehicle back to my grandmother, whom I bought it from, she's dealing with it temporary until MY finacial issues get sorted out. This swept me by surprise, i had no idea I had to do that today. The end result is, even if he found a job.... I can't take him there now. I have no vehicle.
And His feet have been on the fire since day one - in which he was given very simple tasks to complete daily, in which he still falls behind on occasionaly. He sleeps all day, and is up all night. My mother can't afford him anymore. Even if he was completing the tasks : It's not money, which she needs. I'm almost sure my brother is now helping with the house payments. In the end - it's my mother's decision and she's made it. And in these times, I can't really protess. I've bashed logicistics with her all evening, trying to see if there was a way, but there really isn't. Either way, in our home or not, as it stands, he has the same chances of success, one I feel less guilty about, though Just because I might fee guilty, doesn't mean I am guilty. He may not have a place to stay - but those are challenges in his life he will have to accept. I've sadly had to come to the conclusion that no matter what I go through - there will be those who don't feel my pain. He might be homeless for a while. I was sexually abused for years. And I'm not about to compare which is worse, because the point is, those trials are his alone, and i've done all i can, everything in my power too make things right, turns out I'm not Jesus, I can't fix everything. So this is what will be. Like it, or not. |