See, so far the story goes:
Youth feels this way.
Youth falls in love with best friend.
Youth's friend doesn't feel that way at all.
Youth looses that friend.
Youth has been in love with another one of his friends for the longest time, and won't say a word about it this time. Youth can't have what he wants in the way of romantic relationships.

Maybe it's just me, but the LAST thing I need is to find another boy/peer/teen may age that I like, a lot, and who feels the same way.

The only reason I haven't had sex yet, is because it takes two people (I know the few occasion that it does not) and feelings are always one sided with me.

Sucks, I know.
I'm not the next of them.
I am the first of me.