Yup - you sound rather like me at your age those ... years ago. At the risk of being too directive, I'd like to say the things to you that I wish I'd heard at your age:

1) Work at your relationships with boys at the top end of your AoA (age of attraction); if you focus on those then you may find your AoA rising as you get older. And it's a LOT less of a problem if it's above the legal minimum.

2) Falling for a boy is a choice. Be conscious when you start to think seriously about one - is it really sensible? If it isn't, then try and find another to be around.

3) It's not all bad; you have something to offer boys that they need - appropriate affection and support as they cope with being teenagers is vital and they need guys a bit older than them to give them time. Sadly our society is bad at allowing that to happen...

4) Decide what your boundaries are and why. Then make sure that you stick to them. Be prepared for hard questions from your YF: everything from 'Are you gay?' to 'You can have sex with me if you want'.

5) Fantasising about a possibility is the first step towards giving yourself permission to do it and then it happening. So be careful what you are wishing for...

6) Work on your relationships with girls your own age. I didn't bother, and have missed out as a result. And the reality is that a lot of people who start off believing they are gay or BLs find that they do actually find some girls and later women sexually attractive as well.

I hope some of that's some use. I'm deeply envious that you've got this place as a support at your age - it would have made my existence then much easier...