I had 2 YFs before I even realized I was a bler. I often found the relationships to be frustrating and sometimes hurtful (to me). Once I admitted to myself I was a pedo, things became easier for me. Not EASY, just easier. Understanding what I was and where those feelings were coming from helped me handle them better. But the realization did make me worry more about how others interpreted our relationship and fondness for each other. But that's not necessarily a bad thing.

Dakota