Before I new the term boylover and really understood clearly that I was a pedo I never gave a second thought as to my relationships with boys. I just interacted with them the same way I do now. But now that I have a good understanding of who I am and how the world views someone like me and it has changed the awareness of my surroundings and has made me self conscious. I think that you already put it well.

I think before I had more knowledge and an understanding of myself I was much less careful about how I showed any affection toward boys in public. Not that I did anything wrong but now I worry about what the people around me are thinking.

I don't think it has changed who I am in any way it has just made me more self aware and self conscious.

So pretty much the same experience and thoughts.

Blessings

Blaze