is surely 'I did it my way.' Whereas the message of Jesus is, according to Mark 1:

15 The time has come, he said. The kingdom of God is near. Repent and believe the good news!

Repentance is about turning our lives around and going God's way. It's not easy or straightforward - at times we can have honest discussions about what is truly God's way. But that is our aim - to go God's way to the best that we can discern it. Which is not what I am hearing from you...