Hey I never said any such thing, you are assuming something that is not true for me. I do not lust over my y/f and would never do so and when I am tempted I pray for help to overcome it. I love him like a father. You should read the Bible about Judging others and their motives, please do not place false accusations against me! Having a y/f is a big sacrifice for me but I do and think what is right in spite of my sexual attractions so that I can help him with the very hard life that he has. Doing so takes care of a need for me to love a boy and there is nothing that I am ashamed of for that!