Why not just wash one of your sweaters?

I was in denial about being a boylover for years. I remember being attracted to some of my male schoolmates when I was in junior high and high school, but since I was also very much attracted to the girls, I assumed I just had gay tendencies or was bi. When I got older, my boy attractions didn't age with me. I continued being attracted to young boys. But I still wouldn't admit to myself that I was a pedophile. After all, I was conditioned like most of the public that pedophiles were the scum of the earth. It was unthinkable that I might be one of them. For some reason, the fact that I wasn't at all attracted to adult men (unless they looked like boys) didn't faze my resolve that I was merely bisexual. It's really amazing how a person can be in such denial when the truth is so obvious. I think I was somewhere in my late 20s or early 30s when I finally faced up to what I was. The internet was very helpful in helping me admit being a pedophile. You can research things on the net you would never dare look up in a library. I can honestly say after I admitted it to myself, things became much easier. Maybe I shouldn't say "easier," less difficult would be a better term. I was a real mess emotionally with all those weird emotions I didn't understand or accept. Once I stopped the denial, I was able to better learn how to deal with it. This board has been a tremendous help.

In answer to your other question, yes it would still matter. When violence is done to another person, it ALWAYS matters, regardless of whether or not the offence is remembered.

Dakota