Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

I love that verse.

Hello again my friends. It's been way too long, but I'm glad to say that I'm back for now. I've had a frightening and confusing year, but now I feel ready again to contribute to and benefit from your discussions. Many of you left long and well thought out replies to my very long post, and I feel very bad about disappearing for so long.

Perhaps what I have to say next is a worn out suggestion that many of you have already tried or at least considered, but I must let you know where I am in my journey and what measures I am taking.

I've contacted Exodus. I'll be attending weekly meetings and driving three hours each way in order to do so. It's a HUGE sacrifice of time out of my busy school schedule, and an even HUGER monetary expense, but I have high hopes that I will join countless others in freedom from sexual brokeness.

I feel as strongly as you do that we are not, in fact, sexually "broken." I hate the thought, and my heart resists it forcefully. Still the truth remains, that's exactly what I am. I will not decide how to live my life based on wishful thinking, and I would be a fool not to take advantage of the ministry that Exodus freely offers to people like me.

I left many discussions unfinished when I left, and I remember that I had not thoroughly defended my position on the issues of homosexuality and extramarital sex. I am eager to continue this dialogue, but you must understand that unless I am sincerely persuaded, I will continue to behave by and reason according to the principles that I hold to be Biblically true.

I realize I make some strong statements. Please know that I mean neither to offend nor condemn. After all, I'd be condemning my self as well. Rather, I'd like to discuss! May I reiterate that I am eager to continue discussing these issues and I would be very sad indeed if any of you thought me to be dogmatic or close minded.

So Cat, I offer this suggestion if you've not yet considered it: Talk to your wife about getting involved with Exodus International! I strongly believe that they have helped many people not only to banish the unwanted feelings, but also to usher in the natural ones, with dedication and endurance of course.

www.exodus-international.org

I am so pleased to be back, and I look forward to hearing about how you all have been doing over the past year. I will keep you posted on my progress as I begin my umpteenth recovery attempt with Exodus!

Blessings,
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