Well I have to be careful... I'm angry too that society condemns us in such an ignorant fashion... but I also have to be honest....

Part of me is a pervert. If it wasn't against the law and if it wasn't against God ... and I had a boy who wanted it... I'd want it too... very much... and when I'm tugging... that's what I'm thinking about.

Now I pray that by God's mercy I may ever exercise self-control and make the choice never to sexually engage a real boy... and I believe that such a thing is very possible because God is a gracious Father and there are pleanty of Christian brothers living just like this.... but I have to admit... that if it wasn't for God's grace... society would probably have reason to hate me.

At best I can only ask society to respect that I have desires for things I agree with them would be wrong to act on and ask that they help, encourage me and give me the same chances they give to themselves in their own weaknesses.

These guys from other forums who think we are a hoax... I suspect probably think we advocat in favour of boy sexing... and that is why they think its a contradiction... I could be wrong... but in my brief experience of those who come here with genuine questions... they often go away feeling resect for what we are trying to do here once they find out we advocate celibacy. If they don't it's because they think we are liars and all secretly off kiddy fiddling. God have mercy on all of us!

Blessings
Cat.