It has been an interesting conversation, thanks for your time.

When I found myself feeling so helpless I decided to look for an online support group. At first all I could find was support groups only for victims of sexual abuse, I felt even more discouraged at the lack of support groups out there for BL's and it seemed to me like like society did not think we were worthy of support groups and felt the real victims were just people who had been abused. This made me feel even worse about myself.

Then I found finally found a site which I thought I could get some support on, I think it was called Freespirits Boychat but then I when I checked it out I was horrified and realised it was full of BL's sharing pictures and talking about about boys in disgusting ways and then I became even more distressed and felt isolated because I refused to associate myself with those people as I did not agree with their ways.

I started thinking how will society ever accept me with dangerous people like that out there creating a bad image and casuing a wrong stereotype.

Just as I was loosing all hope then I eventually found this cblf support group and it seems the people here are actually safe, gentle, caring and have self control.