"For the majority who suggested harmless interactiion with boys I replied that I didnt like that idea due to the lack of honesty that involves, because if Im unable to be honest with someone then I prefered that I did not asociate with them in the first place."

OK, I say it a little bit louder. I hope this doesn't sound too harsh, no pun intended.

To shit someone onto his table is honest as well. This shit comes even from deep within.
But it is *your shit* and none of the boys business. And I suspect he will not feel that happy about such a "confession", because if you tell him beforehand he will leave - almost certainly. And if you tell him after him growing out of your preferred age range he will feel used by you even if you did nothing to be ashamed about.
You would make him mistrust his affections toward you and to other persons he will meet in future .
Espacially if the love between both of you was genuine. You would make him doubt his feelings, and *this* is contagious.

This is *not* a loving act.

If you think that you should stay away from boys and love them from afar, this is fine. You are carrying a heavy burden then, and nobody could take this burden away from you but youself.

And you told us that " I feel like an outcast and that society would just condemn me for simply being born in to this world regardless of what an honest caring, kind and gentle person I am."

If you *mean* that, that you are a caring, kind and gentle person or at least have the potential for being it, than you should trust yourself. I suspect you "condemn yourself" just as society does condemn our sexual orientatión.

"I belive it is wrong to infect any innocent person who is still unsure off what they want in life with my disease."

And yes, regardless of what society says about that, ephenophilia or pedophilia is *not* contagious.

"I will never know what it feels like to be loved, hugged or kissed. These are the things I know for sure and accept my dark, torterous fate."

Yes, if you know that already, there seems to be nothing you can do about it, I fear.

"I will never know what it feels like to be loved, hugged or kissed." This would be the price to pay.