I am married and my wife did not know that I was a boylover until about a year and a half ago. Things got rocky for a while, until my wife realized that I have not and never would do anything sexual with a boy. And I have mentored boys all my life and have always had and have now a special young friend. I have never really been very sexually attracted to women a little but not much. I married my wife because I love her and was attracted to her personality and beautiful heart. This is a long story but as of now things are going well and we are putting Christ in the center of are marriage. She has forgiven me for not telling her and we are now rebuilding are marriage breaking down the walls and starting from a new beginning. I have a daughter and 4 grandchildren 2 boys 2 girls. I am 45 so I am still young enough to enjoy the kids and do things with them.

I thought being married that I would have a normal life, far from it! It actually made life more complicated and took a lot of effort to make the family life work out. So as I found out there is no easy way and normal is just a word that means whatever society labels it.

I am a boylover and that is my main attraction so it makes for a hard life at times especially being married. But I have accepted myself for who I am and use my love for boys to help them in whatever their needs are, and I will never use those feelings for my own personal pleasure. I love boys like Jesus loves me and I trust in Him to help me with the sexual feelings.

God Bless

Blaze