I’m a married boylover too - there a few of us here. To answer some of your concerns read this post of mine and this one too

You say “Im envious of yous that your able to be happy in a normal loving heterosexual relationship and forget about burdening yourselves with the complications that come with Boy love.”

WE WISH!!!! Let’s just say that often agony and anguish feature more than happiness. Eh, Cat?