Sushil You make a very good point.. you say it is harder for a teenager than a first grader because the older people get the wiser they get and make more careful decisions, correct?

So if a person changes the way they think when they get older it means they are making wrong decisions they would not normally make when they are at a younger age ..correct?

So if a person is at an age where they are not ready to make decisions that they will be happy with for the rest of their life then how can we say its okay to be in a relationship with them ?

If im going to be with someone I want that person to feel the same way about me when they are older. I will give you an example....they should be able to say " I still love you the same way I did when I was 10, I still love you the same way I did when I was 18. I love you the same way I did when I was 20..40...50..80..etc.

NOT I loved you when I was a first grader but then it changed when I became a teenager and then I realised it was wrong when I became an adult.

Do you understand what Im saying?

Maybe I have too much of a concionse and empathy for people, but thats how I am, I would never want anyone to feel unsure or sadness because of me. Maybe this Boy Loving is not for me cause Im so caring and sensitive about hurting others or how others feel but its not like I can get rid of it, im stuck with it.

I also do trust myself very very much because I know I will never do anything wrong that goes against my own morals and values. That is not the problem, the problem is the lack of honesty in what your suggesting.

If I run away from boys its because the whole thing seems wrong and dishonest. Because you are not telling them the truth about who you are, how you feel, what you want and im sure if you told them all of that and they were old enough to understand they would reject you. So it seems like your tricking them into thinking its just friendship when your getting more out of it then they know and thats the idea I dont like, I dont want to make friends with anyone by lying to them just so I feel happy about my own life.