I don't understand, but I accept. My life is blessed. I have great family, great friends, good health, amazing career, etc. No life worries, ever. And yet, I am cursed. I am boylover. I could have been a thief, a murderer, and yet, I was cursed with the most societally disgusting mark of disgrace, that of being a boylover. I can't reconcile it, I don't understand it, but I have accepted that God did this for a reason, a reason I don't know, but a reason none the less. I pray for all boylovers who have yet to reconcile their own emotions. Your feelings won't go away, they can't be changed, only accepted. Pray, everyday.