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Hi Chris. First let me echo 100% of what Rainboi said. I know that I am a child of God and that He loves me. I know that Jesus' perfect and complete sacrifice has paid for my sin(s) in full. I know that the BL part of me does not have His approval, but I know that He loves me nevertheless. However I can't escape the nagging feeling that He is disappointed in me. I usually think that He is as weary of dealing with it as I am. As Rainboi said, 'someday' the BL part of God's marvelous gift of our sexuality will be dissolved, leaving only the pure wonderful sexuality that He originally created. The difficult part is that I wish that 'someday' were now. As the Apostle Paul said, "For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked" - 2 Corinthians 5:1-3 For me the BL part is actually only a smaller part of a bigger issue, and it's that bigger issue that I have not yet been able to figure out. Blessings |