Just some thoughts of mine
Submitted by blazeofhope on 2008-07-8 22:03:15, Tuesday
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It has been said and is so very true that being a Christian is the hardest thing one can be, living for the Lord Jesus. It is a daily choice to live and strive to be who He created you to be. Could I ever love him as much and have the love for others that He has for us? Love compassion mercy and forgiveness is one thing I strive to have to have in my life. This alone can be difficult not to mention my personal relationship and daily walk with him that I need to put first in my life, it must always be my top priority in life. I am so glad that Gods grace is sufficient to carry me through all of the inadequacies of being an imperfect human. The second most difficult thing in my life is that I am a boylover, even if there was no sexual attraction it would be hard. But with the sexual attraction and being a Christian makes it so hard to remain pure in heart. Once again it becomes a daily choice to do what is right and live each day knowing that the Lords grace will carry me through. I love boys so much and chose to use that love for their good and sacrifice my own desires in order that I will never hurt a child. But instead use that love that I have for them to make their lives/childhood something that they will remember as a good and memorable experience. Sometimes it seems that being boylover is a curse and a blessing. Sense I have joined this site and have read the many posts from all the different members it has been helpful to know that there are other Christians that are boylovers but are able to live for Jesus. To all of you; your posts have been insightful and helpful for me, and I am thankful that I can talk/post help and encourage and pray for others, as well as being helped and encouraged through your posts and your prayers. So thank you all for the help even for the replies that are though and challenge my thoughts, but sometimes needed to make one think about the truth and remember not all is as black and white as it seems. I just wanted to share some feelings and things I have had on my mind. One day I will share my childhood experience. It was pretty messed up all the things that where done to me. Not for pity but more as a testimony for what the Lord has done for me in my life and how He has been showing me how I can use it for His Glory. With Much Love in Christ God Bless Blaze |
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