Hi Cat,

I did get married because I love her, sex to me has always been to pleasure myself. I did not think to much about that part to much because I used my fantasy world that I created and thought I could make things work out that way sexually. I knew what I was when we got married but she did not. She found out about a year ago and things blew up in my face! We are still together because she truly believes me when I told her I never acted out and kept it a fantasy and she totally forgave me for not telling her about it. What motivated me was I fell in love with her personality and wonderful heart and the love she had for me. As for being healed I really believe what I have already said and I will never give up hope. By the way it has been over 30 years of having these feelings, I will always have a deep abiding love for boys. I just want the sexual part to be fixed in me!!!

God Bless

Blaze