I've been a Christian for a long time bigcalv. Trying to get boys out of my head.

I can have mostly holy thoughts I've found, but at the end of the day there is a fundamental motivation in me to find boys sexy and I just cannot seem to get past it.

I have come to accept it and am now as ever, seeking to live as holy a life as I can with this sexuality. I do so long to please the Lord and live for Him. I have long wrestles with Him about how to exactly do that. I'm grateful for His love and grace. I also believe I AM walking in newness of life, because I believe that that new life is not dependent on my works but on the finished work of Jesus. I dread to think where I'd be today if it wasn't for the new life of Christ in me.

Much Blessings to you brother.
Cat.