BACH!!!!!!!!!

How truly good it is to see you :) And thank you for your words of encouragement!

I am trying to be careful. I really am. And yeah. That first post was pretty much all emotion and no sleep. :D

As for my wife. To be honest, that was over years ago. I was pretty much just deceiving myself that someday we might be able to fix it. But back this past winter when she told me it was officially over and that she wanted me to move out before summer... I admit, I grieved. And I did cry as I drove away a couple of weeks ago, but that was more for what I would miss out on with our daughter.

I was excited and happy for most of the trip. I miss my wife some, but only like you would miss a friend if you hadn't seen them in a while. I wish I could say there are raw emotions... or ever emotions of any kind. It would make me seem less the heel... But there is nothing. The only regret I have is that I couldn't make her happy and be the person she needed me to be.

And I know that it may not work out with this new girl. I've come to accept it. And if that should happen, I think I will be ok. I will have known I tried, and I would know we will remain very close friends. But you are right... The risk is better than resignation.

Thank you for your prayers my friend. Thank you for posting. I hope with God's grace that your life is going well.

Aaron