I guess this will serve as an update as well...

I am no longer married. My wife asked me to leave. Not yet divorced but we need to establish separate residences before we can divorce. There is zero hope of reconciliation (her words). I am now living in another state.

Since this time, I have met a girl online who is verified adult, but still lives at home. We have both confessed that we have fallen in love with each other, tho mine is much more deeper than hers, I suspect.

Except she also has feelings for another man, much closer to her geographically. They both live in England, while I am in the midwest US.

I don't want to lose her. She means more to me than anything else in this world. But I am flat broke and no passport. She wants to come stay with me, but she is holding herself back for him.

Plus I recently found out that her father forces himself on her and has for a long time. He also hits her if she doesn't ...perform. This is something she hasn't even told her "bf" yet. So the trust is there between us.

But it is doubly killing me now. I have hives all over my chest. Just from fretting. I have prayed and prayed that God send her to me. Or to somehow allow me t get to her. I know God will do what he has already planned... But please! Please pray for her. Pray for me as well, because if I lose her, that is it for me. Not that I will kill myself, but apathy and depression will consume me. It nearly took me this past couple of years. I know this would be the capstone. I can feel it.

I don't have to be her lover... though it is what I would like (I can't lie), but most of all I want to be able to take her in my arms physically and protect her from him.

I have to.

So please, your prayers and advice are very helpful.

Also, if anyone collects coins and currency, I am selling my collection. If she can't come here... I am going there. I will and am selling everything I have.

I also need a passport... which can take a while.

I just feel so helpless.

Is anyone in England that can help me get a work visa, or even a job?!?!? I throw all pride aside, when I say I am begging.