So I'm in bed with my wife and we are showing affection to each other.

I can tell she's being deliberately non-sexual about it. We are cuddling and tickling and kissing (though not on the lips). She's touching my belly which she knows I just love (only now it makes me feel uncomfortable).

And I'm laying there somewhere between enjoying and hating it.
There is a voice inside me screaming to stop doing this.
So why am I doing it?
Because I believe that if my marriage has a chance then I need to be affectionate with my wife in this way. She wants this and I can give it. So I'm doing what I think is right even though my feelings are against it.

The question I have is this: am I doing the right thing?

Am I being dishonest... pretending affections I don't really have?
or am I sowing something into my marriage that is healthy?
Will my feelings change if I keep this up or will the drowning feeling just get worse?

Lord, please show me the right path in this.

Blessings
Cat.