I have to be honest,

Since my wife and I separated (though still living together) I have been so relieved.

Its so nice NOT having sex with her. Its like this huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders... and I do like it.

Sometimes I see her and feel some desire for intimacy with her but I know that this is being motivated by my attachment to her not by my sexuality. I know that once sex began I'd be regretting it pretty quick.

I hate feeling that I've failed my marriage, but I have to be honest... I really have. I'm willing to keep working at it if that is what God wants, but for now its not what my wife wants and I'm not beating her up trying to change her mind.

Blessings
Cat.