Hi Cat,

I've read some of Niel Anderson's books and I've read some (well, maybe a lot) of different reorientation literature, and I just can't deal with it. The thing is, once a person repents and turns his or her life over to God, that person is supposed to be able to become a functional heterosexual. However, this is not always the case...it was certainly NOT the case for me. So then what do you do? Repent some more...then some more....then some more....then some more...always with the same results? Until you go crazy? You know what the definition of insanity is, right? Doing the same thing over and over again, expecting different results. But doing the same thing over and over agian can actually MAKE you crazy...I know.

So here's what I do now. I don't care what Neil Anderson and all the reorientation people say; I'm not buying it. I live my life as a celebate Christian who uses masurbation once in a while because I enjoy the release it gives and simply because I like it ("gasp"!). Oh well, I'm not going to torture myself over my sexual attraction any more because life is too damn short and joy is too damn difficult to find sometimes. Actually, life means a lot more to me than sex. LOVE is much more important than anything else, I think. And one can love whomever one wants to love. I don't think God has any problem with that.

Love,
Chris