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Well, it's like this.. Either you'll be caught, or you won't. If you're caught, either you'll go to prison, or you won't. If you don't go to prison, you get to start the repair/rebuild work on your life straight away, working towards a much happier future. And, if you do go to prison, you get to start the repair/rebuild work on your life straight away, working towards a much happier future. Just, it might be a little while before you can put some of your ideas into practice. I went to prison for bl stuff. It was hard and the conviction has other costs. But without that, I would not have the things in my life now that bring me most of my greatest joys. While there are many obstacles to deal with on a regular basis, I still thank God for the experience. It's scary, and hard to face. It may be the worst thing that will ever happen in your life. But, it is something that can be survived. The Lord can also guide you through. He understands the position of rejected and hated outcast more than you may realize. The Lord will stand with you through this, whatever way it goes. Trust in Him, and trust His promise that if you draw near to Him, then He will draw near to you. Make that first step, reach out, and you will find that He will be there for you to lean on as you walk through this part of your life. Suicide is tempting, I know. The prospect of prison can be extremely scary, and the thought of the task of rebuilding your life afterwards, or for that matter the thought that you will never be able to rebuild, can make it worse. But take it from one who was there. It can be dealt with, and overcome. The Lord will stand beside you, if you let Him. And if you let Him, He will bring many great days to you in your future. Stick around. It's gonna be one hell of a ride, your world will be rocked, but at the end of it you'll be thanking the Lord for all He did, and as the years pass and people come into your life you would never have had without that, you will learn to thank the Lord for it. Or, just maybe, nothing will come of this anyway. Take care and God Bless, TC (t h u n d e r c h i l d [at] f a s t ma i l dot f m :) |