Please don't do that, I promise you without fail that your life is not ruined.

And you're a loved person.

(Anyways, if the worst case scenario is only prison, half the heroes of history have gone to prison, that's nothing to worry about. 5% of males are in prison at any given time in your incarceration-happy country.)

If you can't say what you did here, why don't you email me at (I will spread the letters apart to foil the search engines p h a e o l o n k h e (at) h o t m a i l (dot) c o m ) and tell me. I might be able to advise what to do or I know some other trustworthy people who are very good with the sorts of problems you're likely to be talking about.