Hello Everyone, it has been a long long long time since I have posted, but I have found myself back here, longing to have conversation and share experiences with fellow boylovers. My YF just turned 18 a month or so ago. I have known him since he was twelve years old, and he has been living on an off with me since he was fourteen. He would stay for about four months, and then go back to live with his parents, and then come again, and go back. Well, right now he is back with me, it has been about three weeks. He has a girlfriend now, and I am trying to handle my frustration at seeing him love someone else, like he used to love me. I remember the days when we couldn't stay off the phone, and he would call every night, and cry when he wasn't with me. Now he spends his days texting his girlfriend, and hanging out with her. So even though he lives with me, I feel frustrated at not being his number one. Unfortunately I am moving to a new state next week for personal reasons, and so he will have to return back to his home. I know I am going to miss him deeply, but I also know he is eighteen now, and I look forward to meeting another YF that i can start a friendship with. I think that he has provided so much knowledge and support for me in how to deal with teenagers and how they grow up and mature, and that you can really make a difference in someone's life as long as you are helping them for the right reasons. I have to admit that I have always had desires to be with him in intimate ways, but I have controlled those feelings, to the point now that while I admire his beauty, I don't fixate on it, and let it control me. How have some of you handled the problem of your YF finding a girlfriend, when the only thing we want is for us and our YF to be with each other forever, and the only apple in each other's eye. I have come to the conclusion that I can't get married to a woman, because I will never have true love for her, as I do for a YF. I am dissapointed that I will never have the loving relationship between a man a woman, because I so much want to be loved like I love someone. Maybe one day I will find a YF who wants to be with me for the rest of his life, that would be perfect. Thanks everyone for listening, and I hope to be posting more updates as they occur.