I have read over everyones messages carefully, and I am trying to fix some of the problems I have.

The only people who have problems with the drinking is his mum.
His father drinks with him all the time, as do his older Sisters.

In Australia, it is actually legal to have a minor drink as long as they are indoors with an adult around.
It is only when they go outside, does it become illegal.
But there are moral consequences of letting him drink, and I am discovering
them.

Dakota, I suppose if this was a fantasy, it would be so much easier for me.
But the things I post here are true.
Unlike a fantasy, where I can opt out an any moment; I am caught between progressing with my YF and being happy (even only temporarily), or breaking away and accepting that it is wrong.
And possibly never ever having the same opportunities for the rest of my life.

I have experienced the most happiest moments of my life with my YF.
But I also experience the most challenging decisions.

According to society it is wrong to fall in love with boys.
But does it stop anyone here?
What makes us discard respect for the law and morals, and follow what we feel?

My YF doesn't really meet the standards of a 'YF', but I call him that.
He is a young confused teenager, struggling to accept who he may be.
And I am the only one there for him, who understands this.
I'll be there for him when he wants comfort, and I want to be there for him if he decides to explore his feelings.

My attraction to him now is predominately homosexual.
As he grows older and develops, I become more attracted to him.
The Boy I have known and loved is slowly disappearing, but is replaced by a person I could hold for the rest of my life.
A YF that lasts forever.

So you could understand my pain in making decisions that threaten my chances of keeping him in my arms.

My YF likes to drink.
It is his sort of fun, and a way for him to talk freely.
I have learned a lot of things from him that he never told me when sober.
For instance, I found last night that his mother called him 'A cunt of a child'. That really upset him.

He has two sides when he drinks. One is sexual, one is emotional.
We each have the same two sides, And I worry that one night that both our sexual sides will connect.

But yes, it has taken away some self-control.
I am trying to find a way for him to enjoy himself, and the best shot was to let him drink in moderation.
I am not getting him drunk, he gets all his drinks from his older sister.
I provide a place for him to get drunk, that is my crime.

And before anyone classes the 'snuggling' as drunken sexual behavior, it existed long before we started drinking, and before we had any sexual feelings for each other.
It was and still is emotional support; though now it has some sexual aspects.

I want people to help me make the right descisions.
To help me overcome the powerful desire to just let it all go and do it.
I want your help.
It's wrong allow an underage teen to drink, but if it helps him share his feelings and feel better?
It's illegal for us to have a relationship; but what can stop love?

I want everyones advice, and I respect everyones opinions here.
I share mine, you share yours. It's a public forum.

Thanks for reading.