Let's see if I have things right. You gave a 15 yo boy booze but think it's ok cause you don't let him get TOO drunk? You got drunk yourself with this boy whom you admit to being sexually attracted to, thereby voluntarily giving up at least part of your self control? You still snuggle knowing it is sexually stimulating to him and you both, and let him manipulate you thru crying and guilt? And you characterize taking drugs as trivial? Have I got all that right? If so, I'm beginning to wonder if this all isn't just some boylove fantasy. Because even though you are young, I can't imagine anyone putting themselves in this kind of dangerous situation. Did I say dangerous? I meant NUCLEAR. I won't offer advice because you don't want my advice. All I can say is that if this is on the level, we will be here to help you pick up the pieces as best you can when everything comes crashing down, or when you get out of jail.

Dakota