I don't think that my sexual fantasies about any of my yf's affect any of the relationships that I have with the boys because those fantasies are carried out in privacy but when I am around them, the sexual feelings and attraction are there but its like they are subdued and not really a big issue to be honest with you. Its like anytime that I am around young boys the feelings of sexual arousal are put on hold and then when I am in the privacy of my home or somewhere just by myself then the sexual arousal comes back to the surface, pretty strange