Good question, Cat. I used to just bang my head against a wall with that when it came to my "L". Of course things would find thier way into my mind when he would be with me on weekends and such. I remember that I would never allow it to go too far with the fantasy. I would either go to the bathroom and take care of business, or just make myself stop. I didn't want to think of him in that way, but the thoughts would come whether I wanted them or not. But I had made up my mind that I would do whatever I had to do NOT to fulfill those thoughts. So I never allowed myself to get into the fantasy too far. Well....maybe not NEVER, but at least I didn't let myself turn it into reality.

With Love,
Chris