I want to move on with life and be normal sexually. I make some progress and
then something so simple as shopping in a store and I see the most beautiful
boy and that is enough to set things off in my mind for some time! I fear some times that death will be the only time this will go away and that I am doomed until then with thoughts of lust that I should not have. But I still
pray and I will not give up, my hope is in the Lord I know that only He can and I believe one day will bring total healing!!

God Bless